hmm...
Mood:  down

well.

i'm new to this site, and i think it's a cool way to kind of express yourself without worrying about what people will say cause i dont even know any of you people reading this. so...that's neat.

I don't really know how to explain what I'm feeling right now. I guess I'm feeling kind of run-down...emotionally drained...exhausted...that kind of thing. I've just been feeling really out of it lately. Almost like I'm just looking down from up above and watching my life and not actually living it. I dunno...

Also, I've been feeling pretty down about my love life lately. I can't say that it's non-existent exactly...it's just not going the way I want it to. I just can't seem to make any relationships last. I break it off before I really get to know the person. I guess I'm just afraid of getting hurt. I don't know. It's weird. More than anything, I want that "true love." The one person that truly gets me you know? Maybe I'm old-fashioned but I'm a firm believer in fate and soulmates. I'm looking, but I'm not finding much. All I seem to be finding are jerks that just want to mess around, or guys that just aren't my type. Maybe I'm looking too hard...

Anyway. New subject. Other than the not so great love life, things are going alright for me. I've got my friends, my cheerleading, and my art. The three most important things to me besides my family. And those things are going quite well right now, so I guess I can't complain too much.

Well...if you ever feel like you just want to talk, I'm a great listener and I'm told I give great advice. Or if you just want a friend, know I'm here. Send me an email at AliCat1216@juno.com Hope to hear from you!!

LOVE and kisses xoxo,

Alissa